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SoccerBowlingany sports, just name itmahjong Idols Lifetime supporter: Michael OwenLiverpool: Steven GerrardTennis: Nadal This may not truly reflect my actual thoughts and feelings at time of writing Past May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 October 2007 January 2008 March 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 October 2010 December 2010 February 2011 April 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 August 2013 September 2013 April 2014 December 2017 April 2018 February 2019 July 2019 September 2019 November 2019 All i want is just peace and serenity All i long for now is just peaceful sleep at night, forgiveness from my loved ones, time and patience to let me make amends for all my wrongdoings. A wrong step in life led to many mistakes down the road, from one minor mistake to bigger and bigger mistakes. Greed, ego, selfishness led to my pathetic situation right now. I was not satisfied with my savings growing so slowly that i chose a wrong way to grow my savings. Gambling it away i did all my savings and i was not done. I thought i just need a chance to recover and deeper i went into this bottomless pit. Ego, the pride i had led me to continue on this daunting journey alone without the assistance of anyone, even hiding it from everyone. I couldnt fail. This is all so selfish thinking on my part. If i had come clean at the start, this wouldn't have happen and my road to amendment would be easier and less painful. Now, things have sunk too deep. It pains me to let down my parents and family. The sorrow they feel right now raising a stupid, selfish 28 year old son must be immense. I really let them down. I dont know if this life i can make amends towards them. Even at my most difficult moments, they stand by me and assure me everything is alright. I am really sorry to make them go through this with me. Sorry mum and dad for this pain. Last night, i can feel that my wife is about to give up on me. A stupid choice to take me as her husband, the disappointment and fear she has to overcome just to stick with me. After all that we have been through, i am glad and grateful that she still sticks by my side. The times i let her down are aplenty and she still chooses to stay by me. I am thankful for that BB! I will change my outlook in life and change to be a person. No matter what, my love for you will always be there. Im sorry for what you have to go through and please bear with me and give me time. My actions have caused vast problems and troubles to many. I sincerely apologise and vow to mend my ways. I will prove it through my actions. I really am a failure :( You'll Never Walk Alone~* Wise up and buck up!! the future is yours to create..* 2:23 PM Monday, July 29, 2019 __________________________________________________________________ I let everybody down A hero is what u are called when u succeed, but a loser and shame will be your result if u fail. And failed terribly i did. It pains me to see the sorrow in my parents, my family and my wife. I really wish there was a reset button whereby i can rewind 5years and start all over again. 1 wrong move in life leads to a lifetime of regret. And now, i am helpless and regretful aplenty. I am sorry for letting so many people down. Just a bane in life can cover all the good you may possess and show everyone how useless and stupid you are. I can only now hope and pray things will get better. I really think my family regret having me a useless child who is so selfish, greedy and inconsiderate. Never done anything good in life and only living life selfishly. My parents slogged so hard for so many years and i cant even let them retire in peace and happiness. They told me it is an expensive lesson and they will do all they can to help me learn but deep down i know they must be thinking how useless a son i am. Luckily i am not the only son they have. Its too late for regrets now and going forward, i can only mend my mistakes and prove to them that i have changed and learnt. I want to make amends for all these years of mistake of misery. And also, to let my beloved wife and my beloved family lead a happy life. You'll Never Walk Alone~* Wise up and buck up!! the future is yours to create..* 11:39 AM Wednesday, July 24, 2019 __________________________________________________________________
Lifetime supporter: Michael OwenLiverpool: Steven GerrardTennis: Nadal This may not truly reflect my actual thoughts and feelings at time of writing Past May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 October 2007 January 2008 March 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 October 2010 December 2010 February 2011 April 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 August 2013 September 2013 April 2014 December 2017 April 2018 February 2019 July 2019 September 2019 November 2019 All i want is just peace and serenity All i long for now is just peaceful sleep at night, forgiveness from my loved ones, time and patience to let me make amends for all my wrongdoings. A wrong step in life led to many mistakes down the road, from one minor mistake to bigger and bigger mistakes. Greed, ego, selfishness led to my pathetic situation right now. I was not satisfied with my savings growing so slowly that i chose a wrong way to grow my savings. Gambling it away i did all my savings and i was not done. I thought i just need a chance to recover and deeper i went into this bottomless pit. Ego, the pride i had led me to continue on this daunting journey alone without the assistance of anyone, even hiding it from everyone. I couldnt fail. This is all so selfish thinking on my part. If i had come clean at the start, this wouldn't have happen and my road to amendment would be easier and less painful. Now, things have sunk too deep. It pains me to let down my parents and family. The sorrow they feel right now raising a stupid, selfish 28 year old son must be immense. I really let them down. I dont know if this life i can make amends towards them. Even at my most difficult moments, they stand by me and assure me everything is alright. I am really sorry to make them go through this with me. Sorry mum and dad for this pain. Last night, i can feel that my wife is about to give up on me. A stupid choice to take me as her husband, the disappointment and fear she has to overcome just to stick with me. After all that we have been through, i am glad and grateful that she still sticks by my side. The times i let her down are aplenty and she still chooses to stay by me. I am thankful for that BB! I will change my outlook in life and change to be a person. No matter what, my love for you will always be there. Im sorry for what you have to go through and please bear with me and give me time. My actions have caused vast problems and troubles to many. I sincerely apologise and vow to mend my ways. I will prove it through my actions. I really am a failure :( You'll Never Walk Alone~* Wise up and buck up!! the future is yours to create..* 2:23 PM Monday, July 29, 2019 __________________________________________________________________ I let everybody down A hero is what u are called when u succeed, but a loser and shame will be your result if u fail. And failed terribly i did. It pains me to see the sorrow in my parents, my family and my wife. I really wish there was a reset button whereby i can rewind 5years and start all over again. 1 wrong move in life leads to a lifetime of regret. And now, i am helpless and regretful aplenty. I am sorry for letting so many people down. Just a bane in life can cover all the good you may possess and show everyone how useless and stupid you are. I can only now hope and pray things will get better. I really think my family regret having me a useless child who is so selfish, greedy and inconsiderate. Never done anything good in life and only living life selfishly. My parents slogged so hard for so many years and i cant even let them retire in peace and happiness. They told me it is an expensive lesson and they will do all they can to help me learn but deep down i know they must be thinking how useless a son i am. Luckily i am not the only son they have. Its too late for regrets now and going forward, i can only mend my mistakes and prove to them that i have changed and learnt. I want to make amends for all these years of mistake of misery. And also, to let my beloved wife and my beloved family lead a happy life. You'll Never Walk Alone~* Wise up and buck up!! the future is yours to create..* 11:39 AM Wednesday, July 24, 2019 __________________________________________________________________
